3 years 11 months ago I started in porn!!
When I found out about the Sexiest Awards my first year I knew I wanted one. Actress, Director, Movie or OMG could you imagine Lifetime. The first awards I knew about seemed like a completely elite group, if your name wasn’t Serenity or weren’t in her movies you couldn’t win! It was movies only then and they gave away awards for it seems 16 category’s and 10 of those were the job of the director so it seemed like Serenity herself won 10 awards that night and her cast won the other 6. I know I’m probably exaggerating and don’t have my numbers right, 4 years ago was a while back and I’m not even sure where those numbers are kept!!
I just remember wanting one of those awards and was sure I would never get one!!
This year’s awards seemed like they would never happen and it was getting to late to care about 2014! I didn’t care if I had won or lost I was sure I hadn’t but was curious to find out who did win just so we could all say “congratulations!”
Last week Emma contacted me about moving the Saturday party to the Sexiest Awards and she made sure to say “I hope you’re coming Sunday… I know you’ll leave happy!”. I think I let that go the first time, the second time I wrote back “Now you are going to have me disappointed if I don’t win best director or best movie”. Her reply to that was something like, “I can’t guaranty anything!” so I thought, “Oh great I’m getting the Old Fart Award! :(” You know the one they give out at the Oscars to the one that has been around for like FOREVER and can never win one on their own merits, like a pity award!
During the making of Legs Wide Spread (LWS), which took most of 2014, I kept saying “I better win a sexiest award for this damn thing!” and here it looked like I still wasn’t, just the “Old Fart Award”. It looked like my chances were probably over because I’m not entering Intergalactic SLUTS for 2015, it’s a series like Game of Thrones, Walking Dead or True Blood not a movie like Jurassic World. You wouldn’t pick one episode of Game of Throne and enter it in the Oscars. So instead I’ll probably enter 1 of the 5 “fun” movies I plan to make this year, which probably have no chance of winning, just a nomination would be nice.
Then I started thinking about the “Old Fart Award” the one I didn’t want, sure I wanted it at some point in my porn career but more at the end, not in the middle or in my prime! But the more I thought about it I decided it probably was the better award of the 3. You see best Movie and best Director were based off of one project; a professional could probably come in SL make a single 4 minute video and win them both and never be seen again. Whereas the Lifetime Achievement award takes time and is a look at your body of work not a 4 minute video that took 3 days to produce. So yes I am proud to win that award!!
Best Director, best Movie, Yes I wanted those both badly, it’s one thing to say “I’m the best director, I make the best movies!” but another to have the hardware to back it up!! It’s something that can never be taken away and I’m so happy to have just won them once!!
So to all of you out there that think you have no chance, keep trying and it could just happen!!
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